I don’t want to be alone for the rest of my life. But every time I start to let someone in I end up hurt and alone. I want to love and be loved. I want to be taken care of. I want to feel safe in someones arms. I don’t remember the last time that I felt safe and taken care of. It’s been me taking care of everyone and me taking care of me for a decade. I want to feel vulnerable and not scared about it. I want to feel vulnerable and know that it’s okay. That I won’t be taken advantage of. That I won’t be hurt. Why should I keep putting myself out there when all I am is a friend. I am THE friend. I take care of everyone and I love them when they need to be loved. And all I get in return is used. They use me to make themselves feel comfortable and when they’re done with me they throw me out like garbage. But not until after they make sure I know how much they love me and how I am such a wonderful friend. All I want is to love and be loved in return. Is that too much to ask for?
(Source: morning-alcoholic, via iloveyou340)